The Beginning

bright autumn leaves
takes me back
to that cool crisp day
as I watched you
so unaware
etching the perfect portrait
in my mind
of you
and the falling leaves
surrounding you
capturing a permanent

mental image

of being so in love..

Rutger 357 Magnum

On a beautiful fall day
There was a
Five Gallon Bucket
Filled with water
Sitting in front of a tree

My hands are steady
Looking at the red
Squeeze
1,2,3,4,5,6

On a beautiful fall day
Five Gallon Bucket
Filled with water
Sitting in front of a tree
A tree
with the bark missing in
1,2,3,4,5,6
places.......

Birthday Prayer

Dear Heavenly Father,
44 years ago today
YOU brought me into this world,
Through the years
YOU have picked me up repeatedly
out of the mud
the pit of mud
that I seem so determined
to keep jumping in to!!

What a loving, forgiving God you are
for someone like me
who is so unworthy of YOUR saving grace!!
I am so blessed from the life you have given me!!!
44 years ago today
I was put here for a purpose
It is high time
I find out just what that purpose is
Please forgive me for the many mistakes
I have made
and the many sins I have committed!!!!
Thank you Lord

for not giving up on me!!!

Thank you
In Jesus name,
AMEN

Autumn

Waiting
for the
leaves of color
to dance quietly
and the crisp air
to kiss my skin
Knowing
through the viewfinder
I will see
My Girls
framed by
God's Beauty-
Family Fall Road Trip

deep into my heart

what will you find-

that is my question

eyes brown as chocolate

blue eyes like the ocean

straight brown hair

curly blonde hair

day

night

I am so in love-

My Two Daughters

Shedding tears of regrets

feeling so unworthy-

I hear CHILD I am still here!

I still LOVE you

Just let go and I will show you the way....

Just LET GO

Sitting in a chair
I look at the clock
Early morning
I am in my world
Numb at the moment
When I decide to check the time
Again
It is now late afternoon
I need to move
My mind screams at me
Get up!
I am in my world
I can not make myself move
Again
I check the time
I start to feel panic
Evening
I hear screaming in my head
GET UP!!
As the day goes from light to dark
I want to cry
Everything in my world is heavy
I can not will my arms and legs to move
Darkness has arrived
I get up
I go to bed
Knowing I have to work tomorrow
I have to get up
I have no choice
But in my mind
I am still frozen in my chair...

9882

Sleepless night with spinning mind
Watching you sleep
Thinking of all the years
I have been beside you
Waiting for the rocking chair and the grand kids......

(Rerun in Celebration of my 27th Anniversary Sept 8)

IN MY HEART
stands one small sign
CLOSED
due to emotional repair