Monday, November 22, 2010

inhale (poetry potluck)

 the naked limbs
of the old oak trees
hovers over
 the leaf blanket
covering my backyard

birds fluttering
around the feeder
taking on a fill
waiting on  the rain to set in

i watch out the window
loving the peace
that is embracing my soul

I inhale this moment
with eyes closed
head bowed
I give Thanks
My life

Happy Thansksgiving to All

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Coming up Rainbows

I asked him
what color is Minnie's dress going to be?
rainbow he replied to me
I asked him
what color is the train going to be?
rainbow he replied to me
I asked him
what colors would you like for crafts today?
I know ..rainbow is what he will say
I smile at this handsome young man
as he asks "Mrs. Brown"
what can I do?
I call his name and ask
'What would you like to do? "
Draw pictures he says to me
and I nod my head yes
I know
 before I go to his desk
what I will see
his markers lined up
the way he sees
his rainbow
To myself I think
God gave him
the most wonderful gift
that in his world
everything is the color of

I know most of my readers know that I work in Special Education and from time to time I write about my experiences. This young man is 15 and I do not like to play favorites but Man alive do I LOVE this kid!! He is autistic and he teaches me something everyday I am with him!! He loves to draw and everything he draws is bright colors and rainbow colors. He draws several things and some of the same things several times. Sometimes they will be so identical, if I did not know better I would swear he was tracing them off of his original. Everything he does has to be in a certain order which is common in autism, but he fascinates me so much , he is an incredibly brilliant kid that I would love to be able to see what he sees in his mind. He has fantastic parents who involve him in everything possible and I know that he gets opportunities so many special needs kids do not get and I wish they had. Children with autism sometimes have difficulty with socialization, today this child took a santa hat that was on his head , he took it off and went and put it on the male teachers head and laughed, really laughed. It was the greatest moment!! He is a gift from God to me and one of the reasons I love my job so much. I learn so much from him , a lot more than he learns from me.
Today he was my rainbow!!!!

Sunday, November 14, 2010

No words dot dot dot

no words come to me
as I read the many talented
and regret the education
I did not pursue...
I feel ignorance when no words come to me
and I read comments I do not understand
I write from my heart which holds so much love
and I write from my mind with its unlimited thoughts
but limited vocabulary...
no words come to me
when I have so much weighing on my soul
frustration takes over and I just sit
looking at the blank screen
waiting for the words to come to me...

Monday, November 8, 2010

cool autumn night
 wrapped in your arms
drinking hot cocoa
by the wood fire
watching favorite tv shows 
snuggled on the couch
are my first and only
true love

Saturday, November 6, 2010

only way

written with shakey hands,
the number of the goal in mind,
no food today ...
small box from the freezer at
5 o'clock.....
 devouring the brain cells,
 lack of nutrients,
the mistake is made,
the candy bar was consumed
in 30.6 seconds....
 trying to grasp
at the limbs on the way down
to gain control
before the binge
tooo late
screwed up this day
start again Monday....
the binge ,
      the binge ,
           the binge
lethargic, sick, stuck in the recliner
with goals melting
like ice cream in the sun....
salt swimming
to the extremities
causing wedding band
to stretch the golden limits..
to gain control
to reach the goal
one time a day
the only way
is one time a day...

Wednesday, November 3, 2010