Autumn

Waiting
for the
leaves of color
to dance quietly
and the crisp air
to kiss my skin
Knowing
through the viewfinder
I will see
My Girls
framed by
God's Beauty-
Family Fall Road Trip

deep into my heart

what will you find-

that is my question

eyes brown as chocolate

blue eyes like the ocean

straight brown hair

curly blonde hair

day

night

I am so in love-

My Two Daughters

Shedding tears of regrets

feeling so unworthy-

I hear CHILD I am still here!

I still LOVE you

Just let go and I will show you the way....

Just LET GO

Sitting in a chair
I look at the clock
Early morning
I am in my world
Numb at the moment
When I decide to check the time
Again
It is now late afternoon
I need to move
My mind screams at me
Get up!
I am in my world
I can not make myself move
Again
I check the time
I start to feel panic
Evening
I hear screaming in my head
GET UP!!
As the day goes from light to dark
I want to cry
Everything in my world is heavy
I can not will my arms and legs to move
Darkness has arrived
I get up
I go to bed
Knowing I have to work tomorrow
I have to get up
I have no choice
But in my mind
I am still frozen in my chair...

9882

Sleepless night with spinning mind
Watching you sleep
Thinking of all the years
I have been beside you
Waiting for the rocking chair and the grand kids......

(Rerun in Celebration of my 27th Anniversary Sept 8)

IN MY HEART
stands one small sign
CLOSED
due to emotional repair